STAND 28

Howard is staring at me, leaning against the door, eating some ice cream. “What are you doing?” he asks.
“What does it look…like?” I’m putting my shirt on and move the chair to see what’s underneath it. “Where are my panties?”
“What would I know?” he doesn’t stop eating.
“This is ridiculous, I’m running late and I cannot go back to work without panties”. I take the pillows off the floor but nothing.
“Why not?” he’s clearly amused “it’s not like people would know, wouldn’t they?”
“I know!”
“Here, prudie, eat this” and spoon feed me some ice cream “don’t look at me like that. It’s the only piece of clothing I did not take off” and smirks “so I cannot be held responsible!”
And my mind plays the movie of what we just did. I look around me and I go red.
He gets closer and kisses me. “My blushing lady” he teases me. “I think it’s perfect and sexy. The idea you’ll be listening to Jack’s thing with no panties turn me really on. Maybe I should come to”
“Not funny. Not sexy. It’s mental and it’s …dirty”. He laughs. I check my watch “damn it!” I struggle to put my boots back on “There you go!” I look at myself in the mirror “…ok! I guess I’ll have to face the world pantieless.” I turn toward him “Don’t you look at me like that! I told you I have to go. I promised James”.
“There are way too many men in your life” and points his spoon at me.
“Don’t be silly”, and I stroke his hair. “He’s so nervous, it’s his first presentation and he deserves some quality support from his boss, me!”
He puts his jeans and a jumper on.
“What are you doing?” it’s my turn now
“What does it look like?” and laughs
“Is there an echo in this house?”
“I’m driving you to BL”
“No thanks” and I put my coat on “I can catch a cab”
“I’m here, I’m ready, I want to drive you”
“Read my lips N-O”
He pouts “in my world this is trying to be nice. What’s wrong with you?”
I sigh “you wanna know? Fine! The moment I close that door behind me I’m gonna call Maddi and give her a detailed report on how I spent my lunch hour and for obvious reasons you cannot be there by me listening”
“Cause you want to be free to talk about me behind my back”
“Exactly”
“Do you tell each other everything? I mean everything?” and stresses the last word stretching the ‘g’
I nod “of course.”
“Women! I’ll never get why you value this bonding and sharing so much. How many adjectives do you usually use to describe a kiss?”
“mmmm, it depends… a lot!”
“Us men? We have one basic topic of discussion: tongue or not tongue”
I laugh, “That is the question, whether is…”
“Hu?” he’s lost, English wasn’t probably is favorite subject.
I shake my head “and we give grades”
He scratches his head “Grades? This is serious shit. What’s Markie’s score so far? Am I gonna get a better review?”
“Don’t worry, you did just fine” and wrap his scarf around my neck trying to hide my smirk *busted Mr. Donald*
He walks to me making his mad eyes “just fine? Just fine? I am Howard ‘I like it rough’ Donald. I don’t do just fine. I do magic!”
“Maybe you’re losing your touch” and this time I have to turn my back at him because it’s really really hard not to laugh.
“Losing my touch eh?” places the bowl on the table and pushes me gently against the wall. His body leaning on my back.
I’m laughing out loud now “what are you doing? I don’t have time. I’m serious. I need to get….” And he takes my breath away. A small moan escapes my lips as he kisses my neck and flicks his tongue across my ear. I can’t help but arch my back slightly. “Howard… please… I need to go”
“It won’t take long.” He teases me “just working on an extra credit assignment, I promised my mom I would get an A in your class” and his hand slides under my clothes, drifts over my hips, my outer thighs, back up my inner thighs and now, up between my legs.
“Howard…”
“Yes love? What do you reckon? Maybe I should stop, we don’t want to make little Jack cry”, and his hand stops moving, waiting for my answer. *mental note to self, do not tease him ever again, unless you have time to actually engage in significant sex activities*.
I’m panting, this is ridiculous, I’m pinned against the wall, fully clothed, I just had sex with him and the only thing I can think about is doing it again.
“Well, work is work I understand” and starts removing his hand painfully slow, applying more pressure against my body and placing his other hand inside my coat and on my belly, holding it firmly.
“Please don’t stop” *what did I just say?*
“I love you” he whispers in my ear and I feel two fingers entering me, thrusting upward resolutely. Anticipating my reaction, he supports my body with his other hand. I gasp, my legs nearly giving way, I bury my body against him, grateful for the firm hand holding me. Pleasure radiates from my sex to my whole body. I pant, and moan. "Do you want to come?" he whispers, a little breathless, as he slides his fingers halfway out of me.I can’t think, can’t construct logical sentences "Oh God! ...Please … oh God …""Is this an A?" he asks with his husky voice. I know he meant to tease but I can tell by the way his rocking his body against mine he’s losing control too.
I nod and he thrusts his fingers upward again, hard. I stiffen and gasp again, “let it go love, let it go, it’s me, I’m right here” and his words do their magic. My walls clench spasmodically around his fingers, and my whole body jerks with the force of my orgasm. He holds me tight, kissing my neck gently. “You're so sexy when you come ... "
I turn my face toward him and I kiss him. He brushes my nose against my and gently let my body go.
“You ok babe?”
I nod, incapable of finding the words. So this is the way it’s supposed to be: the frantic passion, the feeling of completeness, the intense sensation
He kisses me deeply and says “I’ll call you a taxi and I’ll tell them to take the scenic route to BL, you have so many things to tell Maddi now”
I’m facing him now and take his hands “Howard”
“What love?”
“What I feel when I’m with you, I cannot describe it. I’m so sorry for what I did last night, so so sorry. But when I stopped you I meant not there, not in front of Jason’s house.”
He laughs and cups my face “you actually wanted me? Oh God!” And places butterfly kisses all over my face. “I spent the most horrible night of my life, I thought I lost you for good, if you don’t believe it ask Sam. I kept her on the phone for hours. I can’t wait for my phone bill to arrive. I might need a loan”
“I’m so sorry”“Right now I don’t care. So will I see you after Jack’s presentation?
“It’s James …and I need to talk to Jason afterwards”
He lowers his eyes “right. I’ll come and pick you up and we’ll do it together”
“No, I need to do it by myself”
“I want to be there. You knew he sent me a text last night but you didn’t call me back, something or someone didn’t let you. What happened with him? Did he hurt you?” he wraps his arms around my waist “I was looking for bruises but you have none. I’ve seen his dark side. I won’t let you face him alone”
“He would never hurt me. Trust me. I need to go there alone. I owe him that”
“I’ll drive you there and wait outside”
“No need to”
“It was not a proposal, it was a statement, what time should I pick you at BL?”
“5 will be fine”
He caresses my scarf “do you have any idea how long have I been looking for it? It’s my favorite one”
I stick my tongue out “it’s mine now. You gave it to me and I’ve been wearing it ever since”
He hugs me tight “I don’t think we should have kids, we’re two morons”



“Are you sure you don’t want me to come in?” he asks me. We’re parked in the same spot as we were the night before.
“No, don’t worry” I kiss him and walk towards Jason’s house, for the last time. I’m about to get my keys out when the door opens and Jason is right there, staring at me. Not talking. "Hi" I say shyly.He looks at Howard’s car first and at me afterward. We stand there for another moment just looking at each other, "can I come in?"He stands back holding the door open and letting me slip past him.
He closes it and stands in front of me placing his hands on my arms.
I take a step away, his hands fall along his body.
“I’m sorry” I say
“Liar, you can’t wait to be out of here”
“I didn’t mean for any of this to happen”
“Of course not” he says sarcastic. “I packed your staff. It’s in that bag by the door”
I look at him puzzled.
“You should give me some credit, after all happened last night you didn’t answer any of my calls today and Gaz tells us he’s seeing his brothers for some family event” he runs his hand through his hair “shit, this is really really bad”
“I…”
“Whatever it is, I don’t wanna hear it. How did it happen? You left our love in a corner to die. You didn’t fight for us. I would have. We had so little time…” I can see he struggles to find the words, not to yell at me. “You said you loved me… I knew you stopped being true when you started lowering your eyes when talking to me… and I saw the way he looked at you. My only hope was … I’m so so stupid. I really bought the fact you didn’t like him. You were the only one not noticing the way he spied on your every movement. The way he reacted every time you entered a room. When I found the two of you in Lara’s kitchen I got scared, but I believed you. How many times we made fun of him…and all this time you wished it was him here with you and not me. And I bet you’re now laughing about me. Poor Jason… I’m so stupid. I called him on New Years’ Eve.” And hits the wall with his fist. “Your pantomime about having to make sure he was not pissed, do you remember? You asked me to do it saying you needed to get along with him, for me… I’m a moron! You were worried sick and wanted to make sure HE was ok. I’m so fucking pathetic. A bloody idiot. A joke!”
He looks at me, but I have nothing to say.
“You can fool yourself but you can’t fool me. It’s not going to last but I won’t be there to pick up the pieces. I’m done caring about you. One thing though. You owe it to me. I don’t want to see the two of you together. If we go out for dinner and I’m there. You don’t come. If there’s a party and I’m invited. You don’t come. We start the tour and want to see him? Fine. Make sure I don’t see you. Tell him not to ever talk about you in my presence. You no longer exist. You saw me last night. I saw how scared you were. It was nothing. I’m warning you. You need to disappear from my world”
“Fair enough” I take my bag and leave.

I get into the car “go now”
“Titti, what happened?”
“He knew. That’s what happened. It’s over now. I’m so sorry for him but I am so happy to be here. I feel like screaming it to the world. I am a horrible person.”
“Yes you are, I cannot even stand looking at you”
I smack his head “you are NOT funny”
“I guess it makes the two of us then”
“Stronzo”
“No, Italian please. Me like to understand what’s going on”
I smirk “you know exactly what’s going on. I’m smarter and I can swear in two different languages. Take that!” and I laugh.
He shakes his head “this is going to be painful….but in the meantime we better go back home. I’m starving and I’m in the mood to cook you dinner”
“Why don’t you drop me off at Waitrose? I could buy some ice-cream”
“I’m coming with you”
“Sure and have women jumping all over the place? Thanks but no thanks. I’ll walk back home. I need some fresh air. He’s really hurt.” I sigh
“I know. I’ll give him some time and I’ll talk to him”
I rest my head on his shoulder “I’m so glad I found you”
“I know. Let’s face it, I’m a hunk, I’m rich, I’m funny, I can cook and I have a killer smile”
“And you’re so humble”
“I’m gracious, humble, the boy next door”
“Boy?” and I laugh “when was the last time you checked your ID?”
He stops the car and looks at me, “I’m gonna ignore your last remark. Go get some ice-cream woman! And make it chocolate. No fruity shit”
I blow him a kiss and open my door to get off when he grabs my arm. “Where do you think you’re going? We’ve been together for 5 minutes and you’re already dismissing me like that? I want I real goodbye kiss”
I look at him amused “you mean, tongue?”
“Lots of it”
“You are gross”
“Maybe, but I’m all you have at the moment hun” and winks
“Alright” and I sigh. I pivot on one knee on the leather seats and steady myself on his shoulders as I straddle him. I give him a mischievous look and I lower myself onto his laps, taking more time than I need to. I settle onto him, making a place for myself with my back against the steering wheel. I can feel the smooth material of his pants between my legs. Howard is holding his breath, looking at me and biting his lip.
"Whatever you want sir" I whisper. I remain quite for a second then I lean forward, and wrap my lips around his lips sucking and gently biting on them. In the meantime I begin rotating my hips slightly bouncing up and down. He returns my kiss with passion, I can feel he’s becoming really aroused. He moans into my mouth but I break our kiss, cup his face and brush my nose against his. “Gotta go now love. See you at home. It won’t take long”
He grabs my wrists so I can’t move “…what?”
“Ice-cream. You know, the cold, sweet thing we both love so much?”
“…you cannot leave me like this…” and tries to force my body down on his thrusting beneath me. I smile. “mmm…” and I kiss him, taking his hands into mine and when I know he’s absolutely lost in the sensations coming from his body I open his door and get off the car. He looks at me surprised, I stick my tongue out “is this enough Mr. Donald?”
“Come back here” he commands
I close his door and talk to him through the window “not now and not here” I bite my lip and add “you missed a heck of a chance Diddilydougie, I’m still wearing no panties”. I turn around and enter into the supermarket. My mobile rings, it’s a text from him “That was hurtful and unnecessary. Diddilydougie is very sad”. I laugh and head towards the ice-cream section.